When I was in the office, I thought I was okay. The day went smoothly as usual. But when I got home, that’s when I realized the pain of unfairness and injustice in the corporate world.
It was at home that the realization truly sank in—an incredibly painful surge of emotion for which no words are needed; only tears continued to pour down my cheeks.
I felt unworthy, unseen, and undervalued in the company.
Why do I feel this?
I recently found myself struggling with feelings of being undervalued after the decision was made to hire an external candidate for a senior role rather than promoting from within.
It is easy to get discouraged when your company hires someone younger than you for a senior role, especially when that person has zero experience in your line of business. Not to mention that you have given years of dedication and built significant experience in the company.
It was initially a difficult situation to process, and I felt quite discouraged.
I just can’t understand why I feel so bad. So many negative emotions are swirling inside me. Reality hits me hard. There are companies that do not nurture their existing employees but instead hire new ones. It feels like a slap in the face. Perhaps it is pride? Regardless, I really feel that it is unfair.
When I told my friend about my current situation, she asked me questions I could not dare to answer: “How do you feel about it? Are you okay being trampled on?”
It is easy to feel that you are not enough, that you are worthless.
I kept on crying. I didn’t want to go to the office the next day.
After taking some time for reflection, I found peace by refocusing on my faith and core values. I have come to realise that while corporate dynamics can be challenging, my personal worth is not defined solely by my professional title.
To be honest, I didn’t feel like going to the office the next day, but I realized that even if my company doesn’t see my worth and my efforts, even if they will not nurture me, I have a God who sees me. I have a God who is not done with me yet.
Sometimes, even when you don’t feel it, you must remember the truth that your worth is found in God. That is a fact, even if you don’t feel it at times.
My value is not based on the job I have; my value is in Christ.
And no, even if I am currently discouraged by my situation, I will still do my job to the best of my ability, not for man but for the Lord. After all, God is my true employer. He is my source of everything.
The world we live in is corrupted by sin. Therefore, injustice, pain, envy, pride, and politics are inevitable.
The world may see you as unworthy, but God values you so much that He gave up His only begotten Son. And Jesus gave up His life for you.
Eventually, I sobered up. I still feel the pain, but it is not as intense as before. I cried to God and sang the scripture song from Psalm 25:1-2.
I may be down in the dumps, but I cannot wallow further in these negative feelings, for it is dangerous.
I praise God for His promise that He is with me. He not only told me but commanded me to be strong and of good courage, for He is with me (Joshua 1:9, one of my favorite verses).
I just pray for my breakthrough. It may not be today, it may not be someday, but one day. I know God is working on it.
I AM WITH YOU 